#notion era

[shibaincubus]

Is it a whim?

Wanting a change being motivated but giving up quickly and picking the motivation up again. Circling in a circle.

Or is it more...

Getting over the blockages of your mindset, persisting and having the grit to truly change your life

[holocene-sims]

next // previous

october 3, 2021 2:00 p.m. morensong coffee house

[grant] thank you for meeting me so last minute.

[cerise] yeah, it’s no problem! actually, i'm glad we could do this sooner rather than later. this has been at the back of my mind for a while–the curiosity has–so when you texted me yesterday, i was, like, i need to know. i may be going out of town for a week, but i'll try to make room in the schedule for this before i leave.

[grant] are you traveling anywhere exciting?

[cerise] iceland. it’s a big family trip to celebrate my parents’ 20th anniversary. as in, my mom and my stepdad’s anniversary. i mean, he’s my real dad as far as i'm concerned, but technically my stepdad. i think you get what i mean, i don’t know why i'm over-explaining.

[grant] wow, that is exciting. well, i hope you guys have fun. i hear it’s just as gorgeous there as you think it is.

[cerise] anyway, thank you again for asking your–our, i guess; that’s still weird to say–dad some questions on my behalf. i'm sure that wasn’t easy.

[grant] i should warn you that it’s not necessarily a wealth of information.

[cerise] that’s okay.

[grant] there was a lot going on when i talked to him, and if there were other questions i could have asked…

[cerise] it’s okay.

[grant] i wouldn’t have been able to think of them, and now, uh, the line of communication is closed, so i can’t really go back and...

[cerise] i said it was okay, didn’t i?

[cerise] the basics are enough, and you already put yourself out for a stranger. if i want to know anything else, i'll find the right moment to get my my mom talk about what happened.

[grant] do you want me to just get right into it?

[cerise] whatever you prefer.

[grant] so, uh, essentially, my parents were attending a medical conference of some kind in detroit. they were still married then, but my dad was unhappy with the relationship. he met your mom at the conference, and then he had–as far as i'm aware–a one-night stand with her. she found out my dad already had a family, they agreed to not be in each other’s lives, and he paid her child support.

[grant] that’s what i know. i'm sure there’s more to it, but...

[grant] oh! right, “the more” is that there is a nonzero chance we have more siblings out there.

[cerise] huh.

[cerise] i'm almost surprised there isn’t more drama. that’s a pretty mundane story. a one-night stand with someone you know nothing about is the oldest story in the book.

[cerise] weird, i feel better now. my curiosity is sated. well, i am wondering how the affair even happened if your mom was right there and about the potential other children, but that’s a whole can of worms.

[grant] well, i'm glad you feel better.

[cerise] and the story does make sense. i always wondered if there was some big thing with the secrecy, but if it’s because your–our?–dad was a married man, i get it. my mom is a very good person with strong morals. i know her, and she would not want anything to do with someone if she were aware they were cheating and had a family, and she wouldn’t want me to have any business with them either.

[grant] she made the right decision to stay away. he’s unnecessary. your lives are a billion times better off without him. if you’re thinking, “how can he say that?” just trust me.

[cerise] i mean, i can’t be upset about it. i'm not sure what i potentially lost out on, but what i've had in life with my parents has been perfect or just about perfect, so i'm not going to question her choice.

[grant] you didn’t lose anything. not to say trust me again, but trust me.

[cerise] i'm sorry. this probably is far less of a flippant thing for you.

[grant] don’t worry about me. it’s all good.

[grant] i am just really glad you feel better, and i'm glad i could be of some use to you as well. it’s a lot easier to use me than your mom. i have never met her, but i'm guessing she’d prefer to just forget about all this stuff, and i hope she has.

[cerise] i was frustrated she wouldn’t tell me the truth, but i get it now. this may be a classic story, but it’s still, you know, an embarrassing one. if i found out my boyfriend were a married man tomorrow, i would melt into the floor and stay there.

[grant] anyway, i know we’ve been sitting here all of ten minutes, but i should let you go. once i finish drinking this coffee, i will get out of your hair. you have things to do–exciting things. go pack and travel and have fun and all that.

[cerise] hey, you don’t have to leave already!

[grant] no, i don’t want to take up your afternoon. at least no more than enough to tell you what you were waiting a few weeks to hear.

[cerise] i mean, i blocked out time to do that and talk to you generally for a bit.

[cerise] i don’t know how to go about all this, but i wasn’t planning on benefiting off your connection to your–our?–dad and then peacing out. i figured we could be acquainted, if nothing else.

[cerise] unless that’s too much for you, in which case, totally get it. no pressure. my existence must be weird for your mom and siblings. i'm assuming you have siblings.

[cerise] or maybe they don’t know. i also get it if you’re keeping this situation on the down-low. i can assure you that you’d not be alone in that. i'm not sure i could tell my parents right now that i know about my origins or that i've met my bio dad’s son. not yet.

[grant] definitely don’t do that before the big anniversary trip. but no, don’t worry about that either. i don’t have siblings. not anymore. and my mom...let’s not even go there. there’s nothing to worry about on those fronts.

[grant] it’s not that it’s too much, basically. i have zero problems with you, and i have no family left who would have a problem with you either, so.

[grant] i just don’t want to be in your way, not today or at any point in the future, and i will be. you don’t need my dad around; you don’t really need me either.

[cerise] i don’t care if you are, honestly. you are my brother. that feels weird to say, but you are, and you haven’t done anything wrong. i'd like to know my brother.

[cerise] this is maybe the only regretful, i don’t know if that’s the right word, part of all the secrecy and the way i came to be. i get along with my step-siblings. what’s wrong with getting along with the half-siblings? or half-sibling?

[grant] i should have also warned you i'm kind of in a dour mood entirely because of my dad. sorry. not because of you or this whole thing, though, to be clear.

[grant] i wanted to meet to get all this off my mind so i have no other reason to think about him, hopefully, for the rest of my life. i'll be in a more conversational mood soon-ish, once i'm done thinking about him.

[grant] this is going to make me wishy-washy. i don’t want to be in your way; i don’t want to be a source of awkwardness in your family if they ever know you know me, but…

[grant] okay. i wouldn’t mind getting along with my half-sibling. maybe we could meet up when you have time again.

[cerise] yeah, i'll text you. i might be busy for a while with work when i'm back from my trip, but…

[grant] text me anytime. we’ll figure it out.

[ranchfamilyau]

Update on AO3 series of mine

I have been thinking about this a lot and I have already mentioned it once:

I consider the Linked Universe as Linked Era for my AU series.

This is why I’m slightly bit renaming one of my series at AO3: Time’s boys. The new name will be Time’s boys (Linked Era) and I will inform in the summary part (after extremely long list of tags) about this being considered as The Legends of the past Heroes.

Obviously, I keep writing LU stories as I please. The way this is possible to be connected into my AU series is this:

As time passes, the stories told changes.

I’m sure everyone knows the game where one whispers a sentence to the person next to them. They whisper what they heard to the next person and so on until the last one says the sentence out loud. Obviously, the end result is nowhere near of what the original sentence was. The more people there is, the more it changes. And hence, obviously, the stories such as legends change over time. Plus, as can be guessed, I doubt the real stories ever were truly recorded as the ones whom wrote those weren’t in the Hero’s place. The Hero stories are, as far as I’m aware, glorified and made more heroic than what the actual truth of the situation was.

I mean that if we really think through all of the Zelda games and how we’ve played them… How many stories would, if they’re not horror stories, tell that the Hero of Time was a ten year old kid? How many stories would truly talk about the horrors of Dead Hand, ReDeads, the loneliness, the loss…. Would think the stories are changed to sound far better than what it truly was for Link. So, yes, deliberate changes in the legends are definitely made too.

And, while we’re at it, I doubt the Hero ever truly recorded their hell while saving Hyrule. Well, minus Wild whom defs did that due to memory loss. Yet, besides him, those whom record the stories aren’t the ones whom went through them. They can’t fully comprehend all that the Hero has been gone through.

Not to mention that Wind would surely tell his stories wildly and changing things to be different than what it was. He’s a pirate and a storyteller. He definitely does it without fully even realizing it. And especially with the other Heroes to make his place among them even more justified.

And so, the stories in the series can be considered as from different times, eras and tellers.

P.S. I will be taking my Ranch Family AU stories off of the updated series as they're happening after the LU stories.

[alltheglowingeyess]

i like the thought of older campers telling the younger ones about the story behind thalia's tree, and soon they started leaving little presents for her, one of the most popular ones being putting little friendship bracelets on the branches

cut to thalia's revival and the first thing she notices when she's alert is the misshapen and colorful bracelets just from her wrists to elbows

[t1oui]

what's up chat i made a whole notion page for tracking my fanfic reading lol (and taking notes)

here it is btw (yes the quote is from just lovers)

there's also a bit with the actual pages for the fics so here's what one of those looks like:

(empty area in the bottom is for notes)

so yeah that's what i've been doing with my life

[sapphcblues]

hey so would anyone want to read jaheira/khalid stuff or what

[andyxcds]

okay imagine this: Evan and Pandora started their loc journey as kids together, as cousins. and i think barty takes an off day to take care of his two best friends. Regulus tried but his fingers got wrinkly and he didn't like it at all. but Barty is devoted to learning about Evan's hair and he helps bleach it regularly.

now Barty can retwist evans locs and gives great tapers🥰

[46lc6]

this is normal, babe

Didn't you workout today?

this is normal

Didn't you read the book today?

this is normal

Didn't you drink the right amount of water today?

this is normal

Didn't you do all the things you planned today?

this is normal

Aren't you as productive as usual today?

this is normal

you can't be productive all the time. each of us has hard days/periods when we just can't work, but this is normal. this period will pass, and you will return to your usual daily routine (*＾＾*)//

[bisonofyesterday]

my most toxic fandom opinion is if you genuinely think the 2000s Fantastic Four films were good movies i don't trust your judgement on literally anything, it is the same as saying Man of Steel was a good characterization of Superman, to me

[screambirdscreaming]

At the bus stop one time there was a gaggle of preschoolers waiting to catch the bus for a field trip day, and someone walked past with a couple of friendly little dogs, to great general delight.

But after a little bit, the dogs were getting overwhelmed, and the preschoolers were gently coaxed to back off so the person with the dogs could continue on. Specifically, one of the preschool teachers said, "Sometimes, when you're small, being surrounded by big people can be a bit scary and overwhelming. Even if they are friendly."

This was recieved as great wisdom: after all, the preschoolers were also small, and understood how scary and overwhelming big people could be! And the dogs were indeed even smaller than the preschoolers, so it made sense.

What was funny and charming was that, upon absorbing and reflecting on this wisdom, they all felt the need to tell it to one another. In tones of great insight, they turned to one another and said, "Did you know? Sometimes when you are small, being surrounded by big people can be scary and overwhelming! Even if they are friendly!" Back and forth, without any particular concern that they were all saying the same thing. Have reached comprehension of an insight, it must be shared!

I must say that this behavior is less charming in tumblr users than in preschoolers. Not least because tumblr users, having gained a little analytical skill to misuse, insist on Summarizing and Generalizing and Unifying the insights they repeat, quickly turning any interesting new information into formulaic dogmatic mush.

[shibaincubus]

2024 wrapped

The year has come to an end Shibain

It's time to celebrate your year in life!

Before you enter in a new era. ya ꩜.ᐟ

» Click me (ᴗ͈ˬᴗ͈)ꕤ.ﾟ

⋘ 𝒑𝒍𝒆𝒂𝒔𝒆 𝒘𝒂𝒊𝒕, 𝒅𝒂𝒕𝒂 𝒊𝒔 𝒍𝒐𝒂𝒅𝒊𝒏𝒈...⋙

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/) /) ପ(˶•-•˶)ଓ ♡ /づ ��� (Success) ˚˖𓍢ִ໋🌷͙֒✧˚.🎀༘⋆

Top 3 accomplishments ˙✧˖°📷 ⋆｡˚꩜

Not in order tho

A lot of revelations have been made and I pondered a lot.

Accomplishments incoming ...

🎀Milestones in my rich girl era ⋆ ˚ᯓ★ ˚⋆

I experienced the rich life literally for 3 months. It gave me a lot of insights in the mindset and made my goal more attainable it gave me direction for success.

🎀Healed mindset/ᐠ - ˕ -マ

In this year I archived a new mindset like I healed all the work done ya

🎀Healthy era˚˖𓍢ִִ໋🌊🦈˚˖𓍢ִ✧˚.

So I never struggled with food perse but my health awareness in all areas got high like sleep; No cravings; posture improvement etc. like everything got better and health is wealth ya

What I manifested ──★ ˙ ̟🎀 !!

/___/\ ꒰ ˶• ༝ - ˶꒱ ./づᡕᠵ᠊ᡃ࡚ࠢ࠘ ⸝່ࠡࠣ᠊߯᠆ࠣ࠘ᡁࠣ࠘᠊᠊°.~♡︎ Safe --Affirm--Success bang˚✩

So I'm lowkey kinda new to manifesting but there are some things that I have manifested this year

💝Being healthy✩˚｡⊹୨୧⊹｡˚✩

Like I swear I did not have a fewer or anything this year like the only thing I had was a stuffed nose for a few days at the beginning of the year

💝Rich era ✩°｡⋆⸜ 🎧✮

I manifested the opportunities to get to know the other side. It was lowkey luck -acc manifested-

Life lessons ꒰ᐢ. .ᐢ꒱₊˚⊹✶𓏲ּ꩜ .ᐟ

✨Networking is quite literally everything໒꒰ྀི ꒱ྀི১

Don't get me started on it; like grades count for success but if you are just school smart and don't have enough charisma the genius ideas will not be seen as much & popularised as being just charismatic.

It's 80/20 rule with good grades +/- it's 80% but Charisma is the 20% ya

✨ You are not meant for everyone૮꒰っ˕ -｡꒱აᶻ 𝗓 𐰁

Some people like you and some don't. Trying to get everyone to like you is a recipe for disaster. It's giving people pleasing. It's giving social burn out ya. Not everyone has to know everything bout you they will not like you more. Focus on yourself and attract the right people.

Tbh I'm grateful that I'm out of this era tho *success and delight*

Mindset shifts: 𓏲🐋 ๋࣭  ࣪ ˖✩࿐࿔ 🌊𖦹ִ ࣪

🦋Fix the mindset and the actions will come ⋆𐙚₊˚⊹♡°

The mindset is lowkey underrated when it comes to changing your habits. You have to ask why -> EX. Why do I always procrastinate -> Answer -> Why (Answer): Then you acc come to the source and can destroy the problem like It's a form of shadow work

🦋Abandonment of the past⋆.୨ৎ˚⋆ᰔ⁺•୨ৎ"⋆

The past doesn't matter. It's not real. Lowkey humans are bad at memories and your feelings can impact it sm. Don't let the past define the future. The future can be manipulated and the past is like the past -> Things that happened 5 years ago or today won't matter in 5 years so they don't matter today

Quotes𐙚⋆°｡⋆♡˚ ༘ ೀ⋆｡˚

Quotes to end this chapter in my life

I'm just a girl in this world fweeee(>؂ •́)ᕗ⊹ ࣪ ˖ ૮ ˃̶͈ 𐃷 ˂̶͈ ྀིა 2025 will be my year ૮ ˃̶͈ 𐃷 ˂̶͈ ྀིა sprinkling sillyness and happyness ya ૮ ˃̶͈ 𐃷 ˂̶͈ ྀིა My heart is full of dreams ya

That's it 2024 was a great year and 2025 will be too. All the lore that'll be collected next year ya s-tier ; s-tier ; s-tier 🌨️🫧

Manifesting a great year for every girlie girl fweee

Thank you sm for 230+ followers ya I love you alll˚ ༘♡ ⋆｡˚ ❀

[empirearchives]

Michel Foucault on Napoleon and the ‘man of modern humanism’

‘What do I hear? But the world of details, who has never dreamt of that other world, what of that world? I have believed in it ever since I was fifteen. I was concerned with it then, and this memory lives within me, as an obsession never to be abandoned. . . That other world is the most important of all that I flatter myself I have discovered: when I think of it, my heart aches’ (these words are attributed to Bonaparte in the Introduction to Saint-Hilaire’s Notions synthétiques et historiques de philosophie naturelle). Napoleon did not discover this world; but we know that he set out to organize it; and he wished to arrange around him a mechanism of power that would enable him to see the smallest event that occurred in the state he governed; he intended, by means of the rigorous discipline that he imposed, ‘to embrace the whole of this vast machine without the slightest detail escaping his attention’ (Treilhard, 14).

A meticulous observation of detail, and at the same time a political awareness of these small things, for the control and use of men, emerge through the classical age bearing with them a whole set of techniques, a whole corpus of methods and knowledge, descriptions, plans and data. And from such trifles, no doubt, the man of modern humanism was born.

[Quotes made bold and italic by me]

— Michel Foucault, Discipline and Punish: The Birth of the Prison, Translated by Alan Sheridan, pg. 141

[slavhew]

a 10 panel comic about control

cont. off this

[debtsunpaid]

love the side characters of hellblazer because while constantine's out kicking the shit out of a coffee machine, ritchie's a room over like this:

"hurry it up," he says. that's typical of bloody constantine. he should try following a ten-dollar pyramid of prayer donation from liberty, iowa — through twenty different computer systems — to an account in barclay's bank, glastonbury, england. and that was the easy part. this tongues of fire system is like nothing i've ever got into before. "hurry it up" — huh, he couldn't even begin to comprehend the ecstatic terror, the pure joy of total freedom to move — powered only by the engine of will — through this interminably awesome beauty. it's definitely the best buzz yet. not that john would appreciate that. he's too damned tight-ass these days — never been the same since newcastle. still, i suppose that changed us all. we all went a bit crazy after newcastle. wonder why he's so interested in these resurrection crusaders? there has to be a woman involved. john'd go to hell and back if he thought there was some interesting sex in it. now what's this — some kind of interface? bloody strange one, though. they certainly don't want any unauthorized access to this system. talk about defenses — this is a positive minefield of booby-trapped logic bombs. a wrong move here could be fataaaaaal —

[kingofmyborrowedheart]

Artists who chat with the crowd during their shows have my whole heart.

[girlonthelasttrain]

it's kind of interesting how often "black holes" come up as a metaphor when talking about various manifestations of psychological distress, often by people experiencing said distress. It's pretty wild how a complex idea in physics, for a long time completely theoretical, became such a widespread cultural touchstone that people can immediately understand and reference it even in situations where describing and explaining anything is very complicated. Handy when you need your interlocutor to contemplate the kind of horror implied in something that gobbles everything up and you can't return from